Sahananda: 2003
was a difficult year for me. I had taken on far too much responsibility
and found myself with a huge IT project for windhorse:evolution, a full time job
chairing a religious charity squashed into two days a week and some light
responsibilities at the Hammersmith Evolution shop. In the summer I ground
to a halt. In October I went on a two week solitary retreat at the LBC's
beautiful retreat centre Vajrassana. I came to the
realisation that I had been doing a lot of work out of duty and that I was no
longer going to be able to spend my time doing things I didn't want to do.
I asked myself what I did want to do and the only answer that came back was that
I wanted to marry Rose. When I returned I duly asked her.
Rose:
I didn't need to think about it for very long (although, being cautious, I did
make Sahananda wait overnight!); it seemed the right thing to do at the right
time. Besides being a positive thing in itself, it seemed that many of the
reasons why we had not done this before were negatives, and that they had really
fallen away as we had grown up and our relationship matured. We were
contemplating twenty years together in August 2004, so a party was in view
anyway!